One of the things I dislike about being me is the fact that I'm unsure who to trust anymore in life, I'm scared to trust.
That's why these entries in this journal might have seemed to be a bit on the shallow side...

Although I have quite a normal life most of the time, there are things that I, as a singer/performer, would like to say here but am afraid to.

And once again I wonder why. I guess in life there are just those things that you don't have any control over. All you can really do is do your best to prevent being taken advantage of. The thing is that you always have to trust someone. The only question is WHO? I don't trust anyone anymore to the extent that I used to trust. I don't easily expose my soul, my dreams to people anymore. Why? Well, mostly because I’m afraid. What am I afraid of? If I show my dreams and expose my soul, won't that make me more fragile? Won’t that make it easier for people to hurt me? Won't they be taking advantage of that again?

It's really not easy... even at this very moment... with every word I type... I feel the fear of exposing myself too much. Even more so because I am telling you about it too.

I'll learn to trust again... I hope.

Love,
Marsha